This are some of my favorite things

Music

Music has been the biggest part of my life, not just because is everywhere but becasue it has helped me through i lot is like my own kinda church i would say, for example my favorite kind of music would be Hardcore, most people dont like it just because is loud and screams alot but for me is like it actually talks about things that are important not just about breaking up with someone, it gives you strenght, power, enough thigs not to beat yourself over things. My favorite bands are Bleeding Through, Walls of Jericho, Throwdown, Killwhitneydead, what can i say am an angry child, always have been lol, but hey we might not have the same kind of taste of music but to tell you the truth we all listen to music for most of the same things. Am not saying that thats the best kind of music, i mean i listen to Metal, Rock, and when i feel like dancing and being silly or try to be sexy why not some moving hip hop, or Reggeton, but in the end i prefer Hardcore.

WorkingOut

I've always been the fat girl, till now that i got way tired of it, and the gym is a big part of my life or atleast am trying to make it be, being fit for me is not about just being skinny but being healthy, but hey the body is just a big bonus, being fit used to be a really big part of my life till i moved here, i used to play soccer, boleyball, basketball, i used to go hicking with my cuzins, anything that was fun, my brother used to push me a lot to lose weight thats what u get when you have a brother thats way fit and ya your the fat one, i started to lose weight and it felt good, but when i moved here everything changed, am really shy so i stoped playing sports, stop exercising really and i doubled my weight, but now am hitting the gym hard, and i can say when you start to do it, is so hard to stop because working out makes you feel so good about yourself and it gives you confidence.

Pin-Up Model

Being a pin up model is one of my goals, is one thing that i look way forward to, i've never been cute, sexy, skinny, and all that things you have to be to be labled as perfect, but when you get picked on a lot, rejected, and all that good stuff, all you want to do is get back at everyone by being something that no one would ever thought you would ever be, and for me is being a pin-up they been here for a long time and i think is a fun way to live your life, and to all the people that might think hey shes not cute enough and she wont ever make it, just wait a couple of years and look me up.

Fighting, Bikes

Those are some of my favortie sports really, and no not just because of the hot muscly guys but because they are interesting and i can acually follow it, and they have been in my life for a long time, for example when i was younger i would sit down with my brother and some of his friends and watch MMA fighting, Boxing, Barenuckle fighting, and i really liked it. I always wanted to learn MMA and just do it but that wasnt one of my goals, hey mabe if i become a pin-up ill endup mabe working on being a ring girl at the UFC or PRIDe and maybe meet a good looking fighter who knows right. I love going to fights they are so much fun, when i was in Vegas with my family we were going to go to the UFC but something bad happened and we had to come back home that same day tragic story you dont want to know.

Another thing would be Motorcross, when i moved here my step brother used to race, and i began to love it, i would watch him and his friends just go out there riding their bikes and having so much fun that i wanted to it so bad, going to races was awesome just the feeling you get when you hear those bikes roar, and the ambient is so great and exiting like wow, those were some good times, i remember once i wanted to race on anything like Quads or Dirtbikes, and i got so mad at my mom because she wouldn't let me so i went out got on the bike it was so big for me but i didnt care, bad idea i tryed to do a jump and i crashed landed on my wrist and totaly trashed them not i pay the concequences, but hey atleast i get to watch the races.

Trucks

I love big lifted trucks i dont care what kind they are, just because they are sick i mean like how they look so tough, the roar of a truck makes me feel like way awesome, am not a big fan of cars exept a 1967 Shelby GT,but thats another story i always been a big girl so big things are like an attraction to me, most of my family have trucks if not lifted really short but they're still sick trucks, hey they are the best i mean, if is to go to the gym, load ur bikes on the back, go offroading, show off how much power ur truck has, anything they are way kool so ya crank up ur steario and be proud to have a truck i mean, girls like trucks that are big and sexy so the truth guys with big trucks get badder, more fun girls then guys with cute little cars who get the goody goody girls.

What i want to be when i get older.

Life as a fat girl was hard and sometimes it can still be, people will make fun of you for your weight, not having a boyfriend because there's  a lot of shallow guys up there that only go for the cute girls with the sexy rocking bodies. So what do you do when everything seems to not work out right for you? well what i want to do is become a Pin-up model when i get older, i want to get back at all those people who once made fun of me because i wasn't cute enough, thin enough,i wouldn't say i hate them, because thanks to them now am a stronger girl who will do what ever it takes to reach that goal. 

I always been scared to talk to guys maybe because am so self-conscious about my self, I've been rejected enough times that now i don't even want to try. Sometimes when people look at me it feels like they are judging me, what can i say am not the preppy girl who everyone loves, am not the goth girl who doesn't care what people think about her, am the girl who is nice to everyone or at least tries, am outgoing, loves to hang out with friends, go to concerts listen to a good hardcore/metal band, go to some fights just because i think is exiting to watch some guys fight and get all kinds of bloody, am just myself am into a lot of things that will not label me as a prep, goth, emo, or punk am just myself and that's how i like it. I know something that i know for sure that i am am the girl who wants to be a pin-up model, maybe a Suicide Girl who they are modern pin-up models that travel around the world showing themselves to people, so they will see that no matter if you are skinny, fat, tattooed, pierced, or totally just plain simple you are beautiful.

I picked this profession, not because i want the attention from people, but because i want to prove myself that i am beautiful and i can do whatever i set myself to do, i want to be someone that is actually good looking to someone, well i can not lie i do it for the attention who am i kidding, when you lack attention when your no one you tend to crave the attention, i don't care about being popular in school i could care less, all i want is to do something that i will enjoy doing, for a job am not going to sit on a desk all my life and let my life waist like that maybe other people will like that but not me am all about having fun during my life.

So you ask how am i going to do this if am still a fat girl who is way self-conscious, am shy, and i tend to freak out when i have to do something in front of a lot of people huh? Well ill tell you how; I started a new weight loss plan that will help me out with my weight, i go to the gym every day during the week to try to improve myself and my body, i want to get in better health because being a suicide girl is not just about looking good enough for you to be able to do things but being able to preform in front of a lot of people and there is not chance for a girl who doest feel comfortable in her own skin. I will get in shape and eat healthy, i got some dancing videos that has the hottest and sexiest dance moves around this time, and with that i can learn to dance while i work out, because dancing is a work out a fun work out actually that will not get boring after a while. So now you know how i simply plan to reach this goal, no matter what or who stands in my way i will get to my goal no matter what because that's one thing i will fight for.